Formerly fat, formerly skinny fat kid

Okay, so my “Summer 2010 Fitness” plan has been officially initiated. This formerly fat, formally skinny fat kid hereby states his willingness, eagerness, and self-mandate to lose at least 40 lbs. of excess flab by the close of summer 2010 (August 31, we’ll say).

Presently — and now this shit’s getting personal — I weigh, give or take, about 210 lbs.

The weight on my driver’s license — from close to five years ago — says 141 lbs. Thanks to girlfriends past and present, a lack of willpower, and far too many trips to Applebee’s, I’ve basically lost all traces of my former obsession with working out, and my eating habits are all too American.

In high school, my T-shirts were size S. That’s SMALL, for those of you who pay attention to nothing. Now, to look less-than-ridiculous, I wear size Large. And it’s fuckin humiliating. Downright sorrowful. I used to look good, but lately I’m wondering if I could float across the Atlantic to save on boat tickets.

So, despite my absolute enmity for anything mathematical, I shall initiate a fitness plan based on percentage-of-completion. Right now, based on a freebee of 3%, which includes a trip to the driving range and whatever walking I’ve done so far this summer — a trip to the zoo, mostly — and a half-hour bike ride, I’m at 5%.

I shall outline my criteria as follows:

- full hour of walking = 1%

- full hour of running = 3%

- full hour of biking = 2%

- every 1 hr. of weightlifting = 3%

I will succeed, given these guidelines; it’s really nothing too strenuous — just the sort of stuff I used to do all the time, but now do very seldom. Due to laziness, distractions, and various other obsessions (i.e. fiction writing, which will benefit a great deal from fitness training, actually).

June 22, my best friend, Rob, will be returning home from basic training and a one-month post-B.T. stay in Oklahoma. He’s gonna be in shape; basically 400% of my own cardiac capacity. Well, shit, I don’t know math. But you get the point. I may be of fuller frame, and possibly greater overall bodily strength potential, but he’s definitely going to be kicking my ass when he gets back. Which means he has the power to be my own personal Master Yoda. He’ll hopefully beat the shit out of me, sculpting me into my former, 18-year-old self.

In other news… I should finish reading Crystal Rain any goddam day now, so maybe I’ll write a review; maybe I won’t. It’s really, really good so far.

I have received 15 rejections as of yesterday.

I have completed 2 first-draft manuscripts (one 10,000-word manuscript, one of 2,500 words) in the past two weeks, meaning I’m staying on track with my story-a-week summer goal. The 1,000 words/day part isn’t exactly going as planned, but I can fix that. I love writing, but without the privacy, time to think, et cetera, it can become difficult. What’s often most difficult is explaining your need for solitude to your partner/spouse. Ashleigh’s very supportive, but of course I always worry I’m offending her when I choose to take a night apart to work on a manuscript rather than be with her.

As is required of anyone trying to make a professional sale, I have to get more individual stories out to market. So, my current “Race Score” is at 6 — novelette S.O.G., short story T.B.D., short story T.D.S., short story T.C.O.T.F.D., and short-short story C.O.W. are all on various editors desks/computer drives across the nation/globe/galaxy. Within the next 2 weeks, for sure, it’ll be up to 8, once I get novelette L.S.B.T.W. and short story N.O.T.W. fully polished and mailed (L.S.B.T.W. to Writers of the Future, N.O.T.W. to whatever “weird tale” market doesn’t already have a story of mine on-hand). Of course, by then I’ll also have 2 more first drafts finished. By summer’s end, the world will be flooded with Alex J. Kane manuscripts.

To maintain my current goals of making a Pro Fiction Sale, losing at least 40 lbs. (or making sufficient effort to do so), and completing 1 story/week this summer, I shall make my percentage/completion for each specific project public here on my blog, therefore raising the probability of my success. I shall also do the same with my reading by having a “currently reading” status, as well as book reviews when I feel they’re appropriate — no point in reviewing, say, Ursula K. Le Guin’s classics or the works of Philip K. Dick. More likely, I’ll review the works of Tobias S. Buckell, Jay Lake, and other fairly new writers or brand-new works by established writers.

Book Review: Stephen King’s “Blockade Billy”

Blockade Billy

To repent for my failure to write a proper review of Under the Dome, I’ve decided to give the good folks who stop by my blog from time to time–all are readers, I’m fairly certain–a firsthand, honest opinion on the merits of Mr. King’s latest release. I’ll be truthful, I was hesitant to drop $10.57 for a 132-pager. Hell, 52 of those pages aren’t even part of the titular novella. In fact, “Blockade Billy” is only 80 pages–modest, to say the least, for a standalone King publication.

But, I slid my card, took this pint-sized hardcover home, and read. I wasn’t disappointed.

King’s a fairly die-hard baseball fan, but you don’t really have to be to enjoy the story of William “Blockade Billy” Blakely. In fact, King is masterful in his balance of true-to-life, baseball-lover geekspeak and everday, plain idiot terminology that even the kid who prefered the sandbox to the softball diamond as a child (yes, that’s me) can easily understand.

The story is told in a conversational style in the first-person in a clever interview-style perspective. The narrator is a former major-leaguer retelling his own account of Blockade Billy’s short-lived baseball career from a nursing home years later, saying things like, “Now, Mr. King, you may already know this, but I’ll try to tell it to you from my perspective…” Of course, I was at first scratching my head at this peculiar narrative style, but was quickly taken by its artistic merits and brilliant storytelling devices.

The start of the story’s telltale King-ness–that is, delightfully unique weirdness–presents the reader with a fairly general idea of what’s going on in the story early on, and while I was able to predict a great deal about the mysterious nature of William Blakely, King manages to surprise even the most alert, King-experienced reader with a fairly brilliant and unique twist at the story’s delicious climax that is quite satisfying.

That said, the real gem of the hardcover is the included bonus short story, “Morality,” in which a dying clergyman makes a strange, sinister request of a desperate, money-hungry woman, who accepts this request in hopes of attaining a better life and future for her and her husband (a writer, but of course that’s no surprise in a piece of King fiction).

The playout of events, the escalation of the page-flipping climax, and the brilliant ending make for a resonant, extremely satisfying read that really outshines the titular novella. This story would definitely have been a terrific inclusion in King’s recent Just After Sunset collection (my favorite King collection, despite what most would say–I thought “N.” was life-changingly brilliant).

It seems that the more King ages, the more brilliant and reflective his fiction becomes. While some claim that he will never write a word to compete with his masterwork The Stand (I myself once held this opinion, actually), I believe that the man still has a great amount of steam left in his ever-evolving, always-impressive muse.

Overall, this tiny hardcover edition of “Blockade Billy” mostly just whetted my appetite for the upcoming release Full Dark, No Stars, a collection of four more novellas. I definitely got my ten bucks worth, if that’s what you really want to know.

Another Writers of the Future entry finished

I finally got the nerve to take all my ideas, my accumulated knowledge, my limited skills, all of the numerous influences I’ve been chomping on lately (the writings of Tobias S. Buckell, Orson Scott Card, Matthew Stover, Philip K. Dick…) the books on writing I’ve reading or re-reading (Stephen King’s On Writing, Orson Scott Card’s How to Write Science Fiction & Fantasy and Character and Viewpoint, and a couple e-books by Tobias S. Buckell and Dean Wesley Smith), and throw them together to draft my second Writers of the Future contest entry for the 3rd Quarter of 2010.

Of course, while all of this sounds truly exciting and inspiring, it is also frightening and puts on a bit of pressure. While reading great works does a lot for your mind, originality, imagination, and skills with the craft/language, it does little for your writer’s confidence. In fact, mine has been greatly hurting as of late. The 14 rejection slips have done little to help that. I do feel like I’m learning a lot about the field of science fiction, though, and more importantly, writing in general.

I’ve got quite a handful of really great people looking over my first draft at this very moment, and so far what I’m hearing is that my story, like all fragile fossils, has been ill-recovered, at best. This is what I think I’ve learned:

1. A story is probably never going to be as great on the page as it was on your head.

2. Don’t revise a piece to death; let it kill itself if it wants to, but don’t murder it.

3. In relation to rule #2, just send that puppy out.

4. Your first few finished stories are supposed to suck, so just finish and mail them–then forget about them.

5. You only get better by writing lots of new stories, so move on and forget about your early works. They’ll either be bought or they won’t, so just abide by Heinlein’s rules, which you can find at Robert J. Sawyer’s website.

6. Every writer is different, but you can’t know how  you work best without first experimenting to find your method. Try new things, leap without looking, and find your own voice.

I’m not feeling confident, no. I’m not feeling like an expert.

But, thankfully, what I am feeling is enlightened.

I feel as if I have seen the road. Now to take the first steps, and go the distance.

2,000 words into the most rigorous SF story I’ve ever written…

…and damn, is it daunting.

It has always blown my mind to ponder the sort of genius that existed within the minds of masters like Clarke, Asimov, et cetera–the real “hard science fiction” writers. I know I’ll never gain enough confidence or credibility to write with the sort of rigor that aspirants strive towards to gain publication in Analog, or co-author a book with Niven, or whomever. To be a polymath, I suspect, requires the sort of concentration and mind capacity one would expect from a Mentat (according to the Dune appendix: [A member of] that class of Imperial citizens trained for supreme accomplishments of logic. “Human computers.”)

But, dammit, I want to win Writers of the Future. ‘Twould be awesome, would it not? Of course, being the lover of literature that I am–the Bradburyian sort, the PhilDickian, and so forth–I don’t intend to go over the top and far exceed my personal limits. Sure, I’m intelligent, but I don’t intend to aspire to be the next Asimov. On the contrary, I prefer to examine humanity, not the molecular-level details of tachyon theory or quantum mechanics. Instead, I’d like to have a basic knowledge of such ever-changing futurist concepts so that I may apply them to the sort of “soft” or “literary” SF that I enjoy reading.

But in the past month, I’ve done my damndest to pre-write, plot, develop, think, rethink, tweak, and research the fundamental aspects of, what I hope will prove to be the best science fiction piece I’ve ever written. I hope.

The story, to me, is the only thing that matters–but to gain credibility, and get the thing published, I want to stay true to the science that is generally held to be knowledge. If I can get a couple of biology and physics professors to enjoy my tale, I’ll consider it to be a success. Of course, I’ve had to research medical information, the body’s biological processes, disease theory, evolutionary theory, tachyon theory, singularity theory, faster-than-light travel, futuristic space communication, et cetera, et cetera. Of all the things I’ve researched, however, the facet which I have placed the most emphasis upon has been that of the story. I’m rereading Stephen King’s On Writing right now (alongside Tobias S. Buckell’s Crystal Rain), I’ve already read Orson Scott Card’s How to Write Science Fiction & Fantasy twice, and I’ve read countless other books, essays, and blogs on writing in preparation for this tale, which I intend to craft into a novelette far, far superior to my previous Writers of the Future entry (still no results, yet; probably won’t be for a while).

To know everything about everything, as Card suggests, while also learning the craft of fiction writing, is a truly mind-boggling and daunting undertaking which at once seems quite attainable, and simultaneously impossible. I hope that all this stress, self-doubt, and despair is merely a sign of my ambition and hope to grow. If it’s any indication of my impending failure, I’m all out of ideas.

Here’s to a summer of 1,000 words a day (and at least one first-draft story a week!), and the greatest, most ambitious year of my life.

I’m at over 2,000 words on my current story (which I’m aiming to be around 8,000-10,000 words), and I’ve so far received a total of 13 rejections, some of which have been personal, and one of which was breathtakingly encouraging.

Iron Man 2 is Marvelous

Iron Man 2

Much like its predecessor, Iron Man 2 sets the bar extremely high for summer blockbusters with its early, but timely, release. The movie lives up to the humorous wit of Tony Stark’s character in the first movie, the tasteful but not overdone action sequences, and general good writing and cinematography of the first film.

No one is going to kid themselves that Jon Favreau is some kind of modern-day Sergio Leone. But I’ll be damned if he doesn’t have a profound sense of humanity, humor, grit, and adrenaline–the sort of concoction necessary to direct a groundbreaking blockbuster. He really knows how to capture the essence of the characters from the source material, get the ball rolling, and allow the actors/actresses to truly soar.

Iron Man 2, of course, is at a peculiar disadvantage–while the original blew the walls down with a film that no one seems to have had any real expectations for, good or bad, this film was destined to be huge (i.e. money-making) before a single word was ever scribbled into the first draft of the script. It lives up to the hype, amazingly.

All of the characters, it seems, have grown in a way that seems natural. Robert Downey Jr.’s now-legendary portrayal of Tony Stark in the first film has been extrapolated appropriately to the point that his shameless character has begun to exhibit “textbook narcissism,” essentially portrayed as a god in the public’s eye. Downey Jr. manages to play this part superbly; hell, he probably doesn’t have to try very hard given his own personal “phoenix-from-the-ashes” history. Sherlock Holmes, and more significantly, Iron Man, have effectively turned a once-nearly-bygone career into what has essentially become megastardom. And hell, the guy deserves it. Moreso than any other singular action movie star I can think of. Not since Tom Cruise’s John Anderton in Minority Report (Spielberg, 2002) or Brad Pitt’s Tyler Durden in Fight Club (David Fincher, 1999) have I seen such a masterfully crafted bad-ass protagonist in a film. Maybe I’m simply forgetting one; it’s certainly possible. But, it’s fair to say that Robert Downey Jr. has struck gold with two very amazing American blockbuster franchises.

Gwyneth Paltrow’s portrayal of Pepper Potts, I felt, could have been fleshed out slightly more–however, that’s an issue with the script, not the actress. She performed her part with the sort of expertise that could only belong to someone with such a long list of credentials as hers. She is never afraid to tell Tony when he’s making a fool of himself, and she exhibits a much stronger sense of integrity and human strength than she did in the first film. And, of course, we are granted a nice sense that her slightly romantic relationship with Tony is healthily progressing towards what I suspect may continue to grow into a full-blown coupling of the pair.

I was, like I’m sure many others were, rather disappointed when I heard initially that Terrence Howard wasn’t going to reprise his role as Lt. Colonel Rhodes (a.k.a. War Machine). However, after seeing Don Cheadle, a much finer actor, in my opinion, take up the helm of the character, I am convinced that he would have been a better casting call from the start. His portrayal is very different from that of Howard’s in the first film, seemingly far less trusting of Stark, and far more complex. The conflict that leads him to don the silver Iron Man suit which is eventually upgraded to become War Machine creates a very nice relationship dynamic between the two armored guardians, and once they begin working together to defeat Ivan Vanko (Mickey Rourke), a.k.a. Whiplash, Cheadle’s performance really begins to shine.

Samuel L. Jackson as Nick Fury (S.H.I.E.L.D.) is probably the single best casting call of all time. I truly believe that. The scene where he first is seen conversing with Tony in Iron Man 2 seems a slight homage to Pulp Fiction, which serves as a reminder that Jackson is an actor of the highest caliber. He inflects his character with a proper balance of campy comic-book-film humor and stern seriousness. His role is not vital to the story, but picks up nicely from his cameo in the original film and hints at the inevitable Avengers film (which is further reinforced with a nice tie-in post-credits clip which I won’t spoil here).

Scarlett Johansson, a very talented and gorgeous actress of who I am more than a little fond following her work in the science fiction film The Island and the sexy Woody Allen film Match Point, really lets off some sparks in this otherwise unsexualized film. The romance between Stark and Potts is purely light-hearted, whereas the tension he reveals toward Natasha Romanoff/Black Widow is far edgier and erotic. That’s not to say that she’s there purely as a sex object. On the contrary; Favreau seems to play openly with this perception in characters’ interactions with her, allowing her to more effectively show her strengths in surprising and feminism-conscious ways. She is stunning in her scarce action sequences, showing her to be the right choice for the part. The red hair and green eyes really suit her aesthetic for the character. While she isn’t necessarily the most rounded character as of this film, she certainly plays an important and empowering role in the battle against Hammer (Sam Rockwell), Whiplash, and the remote-controlled warrior drones that aid in their plot to defile Stark Industries.

Sam Rockwell, by the way, is a terrific actor who really comes close to outshining Downey Jr. in this film. Not to the same degree that, for instance, Heath Ledger outshone Christian Bale in The Dark Knight, but in that he plays the ultimate rival; he’s somewhat witty, he’s bold, and the audience absolutely wants him to die. Not because he’s “pure evil,” or whatever, but because he embodies all of the human faults which drive corruption, greed, and deception. He is a serpentine asshole, and any harm done to him provides the audience with satisfaction. Which, of course, means Rockwell has served his purpose with utmost excellence as an actor.

Mickey Rourke, of course, is a method actor whose brilliance has, like Downey Jr., fueled a complete revival of a career that had no long ago seemed to have fizzled out. The man clearly got into character as a disgruntled, frighteningly believable, monstrous Russian physicist who has a drawn-out history of misery which he blames entirely on Tony Stark and his father, Howard Stark. The Cold War-era influence of the comic book series has been allowed to creep into this movie through the character of Ivan Vanko/Whiplash in a way that is both appropriately subtle (it 2010, afterall–let dead dogs lie) and a proper tribute to the influences that are at the heart and soul of the Iron Man series’ origin.

The movie isn’t perfect of course, but as summer action blockbusters go, it’s up there with Star Trek (J. J. Abrams, 2009), and beats the somewhat disappointing Transformers sequel (Michael Bay, 2009). My only disappointment was the seemingly short-lived and undeveloped endgame of the film, which shows some fairly decent tying up of ends and makes good use of the War Machine character and the “Drones,” but which seemed to neglect the downfall of the very strongly portrayed character of Rourke’s Whiplash.

If you have the time and the means, get your asses out there and see it. Oh hell, of course you will. Let’s hope the Star Trek sequel lives up to this sort of brilliance.